Attention: I had a bad day!

Attention: I had a bad day!

That agitating feeling, the need to get out of your own skin. What is that? and what is happening to me?

I thought there was something wrong, I thought I was having an allergic reaction to my own thoughts. but what I discovered was, I was only trying to escape the moment, to change its features, to make it more into what I expected it to be rather than what it really is. But again, what is that? and why is it happening to me?

No judgement, just love. that was what I felt inside, what I was expressing to the outside world of my own thoughts.

“So you are worried”, I thought to myself. That is okay! Come dear worry and let me sit with you, let me get aquainted and get to know you. What is it that you want and what is it you are trying to tell me?

You know that even our deepest, darkest emotions carry the wisest of messages, the most painful reminders to open our eyes and see reality as is. To face our demons and for once not be scared of them, but familiarize ourselves with them and embrace them in the home of our mind.

I have demons but those are not me. that is the wake up call I got. 

Being human is not a physical experience, being human is a spiritual journey of love, hate, sadness and happiness. Of being water and moving with the flow of life, of going through the bottlenecks and still have the lucidity to know that our way out is by flowing through the bottleneck instead of fighting our way out.

Oh, dear self, dear selves of the world, it’s okay to not be okay that is only a stop in the railway of life.

‘When it hurts observe, life is trying to tell you something’.

-Buddha

Peace & Love,

Sara

How To Overcome The Paralyzing Fear of Change?

How To Overcome The Paralyzing Fear of Change?

The idea of change is scary. Just the idea of it, Imagine the actual thing! Right? 

That’s why most ideas never become reality, it’s just because we are so scared to act on them.

I use the word paralyzing here because that is exactly how it feels sometimes. Like we just can’t move. 

But, why is that? 

I did my own research from my personal experience when I was faced with the decision to move from Amman to Kuwait. What I discovered was that I was more scared of the mental picture I built in my brain for the change than the change itself. 

I was a creative author of a long scary story of negative thoughts, of loneliness and of self-doubt.

I was telling myself that I am not up for this change, I don’t have what it takes to survive or to make it happen. I used to literally tell myself that I wouldn’t be able to breath living away from home. And I actually used the analogy of being a fish taken out of the fish tank. 

And that is exactly what I experienced when I moved, I experienced loneliness, self-doubt, and suffocation, I felt like I can’t take a deep breath. But what was the real reason behind all of that? was it the move? or was it all in my head?

Let me tell you, the change was difficult, but my lovely little mind games were the true reason for my suffering. And that is how life is, change is not what’s scary, it’s our inner narrative that makes it terrifying.

To think about it, which fish is not literally waiting for the day someone frees her from the fish tank!

Now, five years later, I am free fish in the open water, my move is something I mention in my gratitude journal, something that I am actually thankful for. This move changed me drastically, it helped me re-discover myself and made me more independent, reasonable and more in touch with my inner being than I ever was living back home. 

The move re-directed my entire life, made me closer to my husband and helped me discover my passion for wellness, self-development, and health. 

The reason I am sharing this story today is to tell you to dial down the inner narrative you’re telling yourself about the change and the challenge you’re about to embark. 

Was my transition into my move easy? Hell no! But I survived and I came out a more aware person. 

You will too…

So, embrace that change, leave that job you are waiting to leave, tell that person you love them, tell your parents you want to move out, or let go of that toxic relationship. Whatever it is, accept it as part of your growth and life journey.

“Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don’t resist them; that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like.”
-Lao Tzu

Peace & Love,

Sara

The First Time I Had a Panic Attack

The First Time I Had a Panic Attack

It was a normal day… or so I thought!

I’m in bed trying to sleep, my mind is going one hundred and twenty miles an hour, my body starts to heat up, my heart is beating super fast and I feel a weird sensation in my throat like I want to cry but I can’t. I start panicking, thinking I need to run away from my own body! What is happening to me? I ask myself…

And then, a voice within me tells me to breathe, breathe deeply and steadily. And that is exactly what I did, I started breathing at my own pace, controlling each inhale and exhale.

the voice starts to become clearer… You are not your thoughts, it says! You are not your thoughts!

I start to calm down, still focusing on my breathing, my body settling back into its normal state… and I fall asleep.

What happened there? and why?

What happened is that my body was trying to cope with the thousand thoughts inside my head that it overheated, and wanted to shut down.

I was so fixated on my thoughts, focusing strongly and deeply on them that my body started living the sensation of these thoughts. And that is how we live each and every day of our lives.

In a constant state of reaction.

Try something with me, next time you listen to your favorite song, stay aware of your emotion and how your body will automatically want to start dancing. Or the next time you think of a sad situation you went through, focus on how your stomach will clench and your heart will feel heavy.

That is called an emotion: 

“the physical reaction of a thought”

But a thought is nothing but a normal brain function. We have sixty to seventy thousand thoughts a day, ranging from memories to pictures, to ideas, to songs, etc. It’s just what the mind does.

What you should know is that it means nothing! Yes, you read correctly. It means nothing! unless you choose to give it your attention and then it becomes your life.

What saved me from my panic attack the other night is my utmost belief that I am not my thoughts, that behind all this thinking I am okay, we are all okay and that is who we are- infinite space of peace and love.

I’m sharing this with you today to tell you that it’s okay, life can get overwhelming sometimes but always remember that it will be okay. 

And, if you have a panic attack please focus on keeping your breathing steady and deep, and keep repeating to yourself that you are not your thoughts. 

“We don’t strive for perfection we live for peace”

Peace & Love,

Sara

Attention: Reading This Is Like Seeing Into My Soul

Attention: Reading This Is Like Seeing Into My Soul

The vessel from which everything emerges…

The empty space that leads to creation, the nothingness that leads to things and the meaningless existence that gives life to meaning.

Oh, what is this vessel? how magical is this creation?! this space from which all life comes to life.

But, what is it that the eye cannot see? please let me tell you that it’s only space… a quiet dark space of eternal peace, of fulfillment, of orgasmic power that bleeds into existence.

The power of the vessel is ‘choice’, the ability to make informed decisions.

But again, what is information, it’s a figment of the imagination, it’s fairy dust in thin air. Information is lethal and yet it’s the ultimate savior.

The vessel is where all information reside, it’s where the limited becomes unlimited and where life has no shape.

The vessel is a blessing and a curse. The vessel is us, it’s me and it’s you. The vessel is no one but everyone.

The vessel is where you are beyond the limitation of time and space. It’s those moments where you transcend yourself, you transcend life and you transcend thinking.

It’s when you’re free from thinking… when for a split of a second you experience liberation, the liberation of the soul from the mind.

The vessel is why we’re here, and why we’re fearless. But hey, don’t even think of looking for it because it’s nowhere. It’s already there. YOU ARE IT, you are the vessel and through the vessel you shall live.

This was created in a moment of pure clarity.

Peace & Love,

Sara

We Were Wrong All this Time

We Were Wrong All this Time

The pursuit of happiness should be the pursuit of the self.

What I’ve noticed lately from everyone I work with, or from anyone who approaches me for advice is that people are disconnected from their true self.

I’ve noticed that because I was that! (still in the process if knowing myself fully)

I was a stranger to my own self! And, sadly, that is how people are operating in the world we live in right now. People are losing touch with the soul of who they are, what they stand for, what they like, what they don’t like, how they behave and the way they think.

We no longer know what is important, because our priorities are all messed up.

What we think is important is nothing but an illusion… the new bag, the fancy car, the big house. This will never bring us fulfillment. (although they are all nice to have, don’t get me wrong!).

But, what I’m trying to say here is that the ego is taking over, we are surrendering to the dogmas of faith and society, disregarding our deepest and purest virtues.

We are prioritizing material over experience, we are collectors and consumers, we are trying to fill a void that can never be filled with things. Remember, we are spiritual beings in a material world, and as spirits we need freedom, we need self-expression and we need love. 

This is what will alter the fate of humanity, what will elevate human relationships and what will provide infinite fulfillment.

We are boundless and yet we treat ourselves as bounded beings, we always say how are ‘have to’ and how ‘we don’t have the choice’. But guess what? we do!

We always have the choice to get to know ourselves better and to take time of every day to know what is important, we have the choice to react in a certain way, to think in a certain and to behave in a certain way. We also have the choice to be free, to choose freely and to express ourselves fully.

Self-expression is the celebration of self-knowledge, it’s putting the common sense to practice, it’s respecting your own set of beliefs and it’s the courage of showing the world who you truly are.

By knowing ourselves, we will be liberated, we will thrive and grow like never before and we will see the horizon of infinite possibilities.

“He who knows others is wise; he who knows himself is enlightened.”
-Lao Tzu

Peace & Love,

Sara

 

The 5 Ultimate Self-Destruction Habits Of Humankind

The 5 Ultimate Self-Destruction Habits Of Humankind

That moment when you wake up!

You thought it means to wake up from sleep, didn’t you? 

Well, it doesn’t!

I’m talking about a different level of waking up… the moment you open our eyes and see yourself, for the first time. 

We are usually the one person who is standing between us and our dreams, and here is how we do it… 

The 5 ultimate self- destruction habits of humankind:

1-  Oblivion, 

Not asking yourself the most important questions in life: 

Who am I? Why am I here? And what do I stand for? 

These three questions, if answered, will change your life. Have you ever started a relationship with someone before you actually got to know them, I hope not! 

The exact same thing happens here, you can’t start building a relationship with yourself if you don’t really know who you are, what your goals are in life and what are the main values you live by. 

2- Self- doubt

That is one creepy monster! You don’t feel it’s coming and then suddenly you see it in front of you and get too scared to even move. 

Self doubt is paralyzing, it will forever keep you in your place because you don’t believe in yourself enough to take any step. 

It’s that voice inside your head that tells you: you are not ready, you don’t have it in you, and maybe it’s not for you. 

So, keep an eye out for this monster and have enough faith in yourself that when you see it you have the courage to say no I do have it in me and I will do it.

3- Comfort Zone

This is more like the friend you don’t really want to have. The friend that tells you it’s okay to just go out and party every night when you’re twenty-nine, just because you used to do that when you were eighteen and life was going perfectly fine. 

But life changes, and you want to change with it. The higher the wave, the better your surfing skills ought to be. 

So step out of your comfort zone, do things that scare you sometimes, raise your own bar, learn and new skill, watch yourself grow and cheer on. 

4- Distraction

We live in a time where peace and quiet is a luxury. It’s like you’re trying to make a conversation with someone in the middle of a crowd. Will you be able to listen to them? Of course not!

That is where we are now, we are always trying to get our own attention, but we can’t even listen to ourselves anymore. There is just so much noise around us; the noise of a busy life, of a demanding job, of our thoughts about our busy life and our demanding job.

Our attention span is becoming shorter and shorter because we’re getting used to what’s quick and easy.

But the question is, how will we ever know who we are if we’re never really there with ourselves anymore.

5- Just Being Mean

That is when you choose to be mean to yourself, to be harsh on yourself and to beat yourself up. 

Why didn’t I do well in that meeting? I look too fat! I’m too thin! I wish had long hair! My hair looked better short! I’m never going to make it! Who do I think I am! 

I can literally go on forever…

How will your car be if you kept treating it like crap? It will break down! And probably way sooner than expected. 

We are exactly the same, we will break down at a certain point if we keep mistreating ourselves. 

Self love is compassion, it’s support, it’s looking at yourself and saying thank you! You did your best today and that was awesome.

It’s patting yourself on the back after a long day, it’s saying I love you for who you are and for what I want you to be. 

Self love is being full of yourself enough to be able to give, to share and to attract what you want in your life and not what you need. 

“No one is you, and that is your superpower

Peace & Love,

Sara

 

 

 

Are You Feeling Lost?

Are You Feeling Lost?

Where are you now in your life? and how do you look at it?

For a lot of us, this is something that we think about but don’t really invest too much time trying to figure it out.

The thing is, we usually look at our life from one angle only- and that is the angle we think will provide us with the ultimate happiness.

So, for example, let’s say your career is on top of your priority pyramid. How will you look at your life then? You will over fixate on everything that is related to your career; whether it was the number of hours you work in a week, the deal you are waiting for, the project you are working on, etc. You tend to lose sleep sometimes because you have a deadline, or you miss your yoga class because you have a business dinner, or you take a raincheck on your date night with your partner because this project is just too important!

But, have you ever thought about how will this affect your life?

Let’s imagine something together- you have an empty garden, and you take one corner of that garden and keep planting it, taking care of it, and watering it. What will you end up with? a very unbalanced garden! Most of your garden will still be as empty as it was when you first were looking at it.

This is exactly how our life is. We have multiple areas that compromise our entire life experience and these include, our relationships, our health and physical exercise, our finances, our spirituality and our learning and growth.

Which is more important than the other? none is! they are all equally important. They all add up together to create this perfect well-rounded living experience.

Taking care of only one of these areas will leave you with a big empty hole, a feeling of dissatisfaction with the status quo, and an eagerness for change, or for having something different.

The secret to happiness is balance! it’s having loving and supportive relationships, a healthy body, a strong mind, a passionate career and progress in the right direction.

How does that happen?

By checking in with yourself and re-organizing your priorities every time you feel something is out of balance. It’s making sure you give your partner and yourself enough love after you come home from a ten-hour working day. It’s taking care of what you eat and exercising often enough that you know your body is growing stronger and not older.

It’s just giving yourself enough time to actually live your life and not just be alive! it’s making healthy choices and then sticking to them.

So, know your priorities, give balanced attention, and make smart decisions.

And by that, my friend, you will have achieved what I call “the balanced being”.

Peace & Love,

Sara